Tuesday, 24 May 2022

Time for a change

I wonder if it's always been this time of year when I've felt this restlessness, the need for change. In some ways my spirit, my personality is solid, grounder but there's another side of me that gets restless now and then. 

A restless me to drift and roam

A quiet me to stay at home.

The quiet me has been settled the past few years but I think her cage is being rattled a bit right now.  For the past few days I've been fighting feeling rebellious, which at my age exhibits in a craving for chocolate and cream donuts and anything else that is forbidden under my current strict eating regime.  I've resisted so far but only because I know I'll suffer and be sorry if I don't.  Yesterday in the supermarket I got quite excited when I  found some gluten, dairy and lactose free chocolate biscuits.  Egg free, too, but I'm OK with eggs.  They taste like flavoured - hard to decipher which flavour - chaff.

If I had the funds I'd be off to a far away place, arctic blue or tropic green.  The places I've seen and loved - and other exotic places I've only seen in my dreams. 

I'll just have to keep focusing on the two happy occasions on my horizon until the feelings drift away.  They will.  And maybe when they return again I'll handle them better.  Who knows?  It could happen.

At the end of June there will be a happy reunion with most of my siblings in Australia.  It's been so long since we've seen each other!

And, breaking news, in November my son will be coming home from Brasil for a couple of months.  And I will get to meet and spend Granny time with little two year old Emilia.   I cry with joy every time I think of it.

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  1. Such wonderful news! Visiting and having visitors may just take care of some of the restless feelings for a while.

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    1. I think you may be right, mimi. The joy is more powerful than the restlessness surely.

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  2. Things sound good. The new header is cause for celebration on it's own. Grand it is.

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    1. Glad you like the header, Adrian. I thought it might be a bit dull, I took it late in the afternoon.

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    2. Early or late is best for photography. You get nice contrast

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  3. It's natural to feel restless now and then. The solution is not a far away, exotic place, but to just go out of the house for a walk, a little shopping adventure or to meet someone for a cup of coffee. I usually go out twice a week to exchange the scenery and have some sort of interaction. It does me good, and though I sometimes feel tired I don't give it up.

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    1. I've been thinking along the same lines, Duta. Have been more social than usual and for a couple of long drives. Have also been getting engrossed in a craftwork which I think helps.

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  4. I'm so happy for you, filled with anticipation at seeing your son and granddaughter! And my husband has Celiac disease and must eat gluten free. We use regular recipes for cakes but use 60% white rice flour and 40% corn starch, I think you say corn flour. We also add xanthan gum and a bit more oil or butter, sour cream is also good. I love to serve cakes to company and they can't believe it's gluten free!!☺

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  5. Thanks, Kay. Hope November doesn't take too long to get here! And thanks for the baking tips.

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  6. Blessings on you and your son. Many hours together I hope.

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    1. Thanks, Tabor. I'm sure the time he and his little family are here will be wonderful.

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  7. That is wonderful news about your son, and your coming meeting with Emilia. How exciting for you...terrific news and something so great to look forward to.

    I'm a boring old fart...I have no desire to roam. A hermit I am! lol

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    1. I think I have a fair bit of hermit in me - most of the time., Lee. Then I have these strange times when I yearn to be the opposite.

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  8. Pauline, you've been very much in my thoughts recently whilst I've been rushing around like a funny-coloured-blue-arsed-fly. You've always had these restless periods. But everything will be forgotten (temporarily at least) when your Brazillian family arrive.

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    1. I'm reminded how long we have been friends when I realize you are familiar with my restless urges, Graham. Yes, it will pass. I think it is easing already. And I know I will forget all else when I have that little Emilia in my clutches.

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  9. PS I love the new picture too because is is just so New Zealand! Even if it's not the Uppity Downities.

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    1. Took that photo on the farm, Graham, looking across at our neighbour's farm which, by the way, they have named River Valley Run. Isn't that a fabulous name?
      How I miss the farm!!

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  10. You have lots to look forward too. Relish it!

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