I don't think life hasn't been any duller than usual, I've just had less energy to ignore it. I'm sure that must make sense to someone. Otherwise, too bad.
I've been lacking distractions. Maybe my vision has narrowed and I haven't been seeing them.
I got cross with myself for tripping over and doing myself an injury. I'm glad to say it looked a lot worse than it was but I refused to go anywhere with my bruises and black eye. Being housebound gave me a bad case of apathy. Sometimes I feel like giving myself a good shake but just can't be bothered.
My Gran would sometimes refer to a "sorry state of affairs" and that's what I found myself saying when the best thing to happen all day was an email which opened as follows:
Dear Mr. Find Sex For One Night here! https://xgeri.me
Someone sure got the wrong address!
I thought that was hysterically funny then became alarmed thinking hysteria is a sign of anxiety, not apathy. Maybe I'm anxious about my apathy.
I'm amusing myself now. I feel better.
Sad to hear you're going through a bad patch in life. I was reading an article about brain fog today. It's on the increase due to people being isolated. Hopefully, you can shake off the miseries and bounce back into your old self soon.
ReplyDeleteHi Diane, Brain fog is a good description for how I've been feeling. I didn't handle my self imposed isolation as well as I did the lockdowns. Weird!
DeleteThis lockdown malarkey has much to answer for. A case of the cure being worse than the disease. I decided a year ago to ignore it and as an excuse to do so went shopping for old folk, many of the elderly being younger than me but it was a good excuse.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you have recovered from your cowp.
I hope amusing yourself is not the same as playing with yourself. Not to worry we wrinklies have few things left to enjoy.
Thanks for the laugh, Adrian. I'm glad I can always depend on you for that.
DeleteYou are probably suffering from a mild case of Coviditis, Pauline, common symptoms of which are apathy and lassitude. However, in most cases, it is self-healing, and I think that in your case there is already evidence of recovery. I am sorry to hear that you are bruised and have a black eye, and not even a good tale to spin as to how you got it. As for finding sex for one night perhaps many would be booking a flight to New Zealand were there only planes to take them!
ReplyDeleteGood comment, David. Made me smile.
DeleteGood to have you back, Pauline. I was concerned by your absence.
ReplyDeleteYour mood of late is not too dissimilar to my own. I'm sorry to hear about your fall. I hope you're are well on the road to recovery.
I, too, have been receiving some very suspect emails. One was offering me the chance to increase a certain appendage (which I do not have) by three inches!!! A few others have come from "girls" offering their services. As far as I am away, I am still a fully-fledged, ticketed female and have not had a sex change!!! ;)
Take good care...keep your chin up (I try to keep my chin up but I end up getting a sore neck...and I do look a bit silly with my chin held up high all the damn time!) :)
Hi Lee, I guess we all let our chin slip occasionally. It's amazing the miracles of modern medicine that are readily available via email, isn't it?
DeleteIt sounds like you have what we call a case of the ookie-pookies. Mostly they go away, finding stuff to laugh at can help chase them away.
ReplyDeleteLove the sound of the ookie-pookies. Just saying the words cheers me up.
ReplyDeleteThe introduction to your post makes perfect sense, if that's any help! 🙃 It's quite exhausting trying to pretend life is normal these days, even without bruises.
ReplyDeleteThe influence of the pandemic reaches even here where, thankfully, life is relatively normal. I think I worry more about my son and little grand-daughter in Brasil more than even I realize.
DeleteJust read your post. This is not like you. You are the beacon of solid cheerful solidity. I'm glad to see that you're on the road to 'recovery'. You are my beacon of light. Please stay brightly shining.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the kind words, Graham. I'll be sparking on all cylinders (or as many that are left) in no time.
ReplyDeleteHi Pauline. Can I say I think I know exactly how you are feeling? Sometimes my life seems to be going up and down like a yo-yo, and I am not sure what is causing it as I feel I have adjusted to being alone but then the downies hit again. I suppose it is alright, as long as we bounce and come up again :)
ReplyDeleteHopefully you are now in the bounce-up stage and feeling better than you were. Lots of big hugz, Mxx